I'm writing to you guys because I need help and direction. Things have not been OK for quite some time. I moved to Chicago from Baltimore in 2007 to attend Graduate school. I would say that the first 1.5 years was an exhilirating experience but many of my friends graduated and got jobs before me as I started in the Spring and they had started in the Fall. I spent the next couple years trying to be a freelancer and find some new friends in this city. I would say that things were going o.k. until about February or March of last year. I stopped looking for freelance work and became involved in a relationship that was bad for me...lost my apartment where I had been for four years and then it seems everything kind of started spiraling from there...I moved in with a new boyfriend while looking for a new apartment, in the meantime I stopped looking for freelance work. Then after living in the back of a pet supply store with my then boyfriend I moved in with a roomate and that ended badly and was only there for maybe 3 months. I got my own place again...things seemed to be stabilizing in my life...though I was still with this boyfriend and was unhappy. I broke up with the boyfriend in June and continued to waver about going back into freelancing. I had money from a fund and you are probably going to judge me on this but instead of saving it I used it to provide food shelter while I looked for what would make me happier in life...I found that I liked making jewelry. At the same time as I am discovering this, I am turning down jobs for freelancing, squandering opportunities to work in the field I went to school for and growing ever poorer. My car was impounded by the city for unpaid parking tickets and my general life is pretty much in financial shambles now. Everytime I think about how to rebuild my life I feel it is too much and it just makes me depressed. (And yes, I have tried different medications but I don't like being on them, after all I didn't get much better being on them.) I'm an unhappy person inside, I want to find my passion in life...I feel like I don't belong and if things keep going this way, I'm going to end up living with my mom. I'm ashamed to tell my parents about how bad my debt is and about my car. I've been stuck in this personal hell for what seems like 4 or 5 years. It seems life is just passing me by and I'm getting more and more into debt, losing everything that mattered to me and not getting anywhere. HELP! How do I get out of this funk? I feel lost in life and like I'm just not good at it in general if that makes any sense. I don't know what else to do or who to turn to. I'm on food stamps and don't have electricity in my apartment and my mom is helping me out with rent. In a few weeks I'm flying down to see her... Did I mention I have a dog to care for and worry how I'm going to get through this with her. I'm ashamed of my circumstances and I know that this is all in my doing. When I think back, I wonder how I let it get this bad. I seemed to have stopped caring. I'm not happy here (in my current city) it's too cold in the winter and would like to eventually move. I'm just stuck and need a clear plan to get myself out of this mess, fast. Please help.