I am having a really hard day! I should be happy and excited as we are going on a trip with the family tomorrow but instead I am being an anxious crabby mom! I have already cried today and just feel like an emotional wreck. I am just so sad and missing AP even more so...why am I missing him when I am going away. I was excited booking this trip, I really was. So why do I feel this way?? I am in a bad spot where I want to ask him to meet me so I can still see that he cares but I know what good will that do.
Trying to work on my Marriage but will it ever compare to the passion I once felt? I feel like I am exhausted trying to capture something that aint there yet I dont want to hurt my H either. Anyways I have been out of sorts all day and finally thought I would try writing it out instead of reaching out to AP where that could possibly ruin my trip all together if I didnt get the response I was looking for or even if I did get the response I was looking for would still make it bad for me.
Just trying to make it thru this big bump today...god Affairs so suck the life out of you!
Thanks for listening to me babble!