I'm new to the board and I just really need some support! I can't talk to anyone else about it because I don't want my children to find out about it. I don't have a best friend either. My husband of 16 years is an over the road truck driver. He took a woman with him on the road and had an affair. He said it was one time and it meant nothing and he is sick about it. Well he has told me he loves me only wants me and so forth and I believe him, however I can't make the pain stop. He is still an OTR truck driver and I am always wondering what he is doing. He calls me all the time. I check cell phone records religiously and so forth. I feel like I have forgiven him, but I'm still reeling from the hurt and pain. It has been over a year since the DDay but I can't seem to cope. I don't think about it as much but when it does come back, it really hurts. Does anyone have any advice for me on how to help myself get over it? I'm really struggling because I want to keep my family together.