Yep, I'm still here. Last contact was 9/7/12. And this time it was me who said I'm done. Really done. I've felt good about the decision and know that it's the right time to move on. I've made no contact with him since then.
But now, he has sent me four messages since Sunday. This is the first since I said no more. All are hurtful and mean and are meant to draw a response from me. I am resisting the urge to reply. His true colors are coming through as he shows how vindictive and cruel he really is. Asking me how it feels to not be good enough for him.
It's not like he's even trying to be nice to me. And when I really think about it, I don't know if he ever was. I have to see it for what it is. He doesn't care about me and never did. He's just pissed that I'm in control of the situation.
So, I decided to come here instead and hope that this will be enough to keep me strong. Without him I feel clean. And safe. Nothing good will come out of having any further contact with him. I want to continue to feel lucky to be out of that situation and be grateful for what I have that is good in my life.
I'm just not going to fold. I know he'll continue to press, hoping that I will.
This is what's right for me.