All I want to do today is cry. I can't block the thoughts out of my mind today. Something reminded me of my former friend and now all the hurt and pain is right there. I can't stop my brain from going over and over things again!. I hate this! I want to move on, forget her, forget what he and she did, adn try to rebuild my llife and marriage.  But things just keep reminding me of her, which just brings back the pain and heartache all over again.  Getting over the betrayal of a spouse is enough but having to deal with the betrayal and loss of a best friend with it is unbearable.  Your best friend is the one that you are supposed to be able ot turn to in times like this and I lost mine becasue she is the OW!.  I'm sorry, I needed to vent.  I am just strugglign right now. I feel myself falling back into a depression and I don't want that. I can't let it happen. My kids need a happy mom, not a sad depresssed lonely one.  I am on some meds for a urinary tract infection and I don't know if htey are safe to take with my happy pills.  I quit takign them when I was doing better but now I htink I really could use going back on them. I hate taking medicine too!. How can people do this to another person? Especially someone they supposedly love and care for? I will never understand it.