I joined iVillage today in order to read about other women's feelings about TTC and feel that I wasn't alone.
My husband and I are in our mid-thirties and have been trying for a little over a year. It gets increasingly more difficult and emotional as the months go on. This process has taken a toll on me and I struggle with the fear of never becoming a mother. I am working on doing whatever I can to make it happen (medical appointments, etc.) while also trying to learn to accept where I am right now...and honor my feelings. I still have oodles of hope that I will become pregnant, but at the same time I feel very sad. This process is painful. This is not what I dreamt it would be like when I got married and decided to have a baby...but it is my real story now.
I appreciate all of you that have posted your feelings and thoughts so honestly. It is comforting.