I thought this pregnancy was going to be my best pregnancy and I was going to enjoy it so much. My last 2 I was in a loveless marriage and he never went to any of the appointments and I was on my own. I raised all 3 of my kids on my own without my husband being around. Did last 2 pregnancies by myself completely. I have lived on my own for the last 6 yrs. Finally decided to get a divorce last January. Ran into my highschool sweetheart and we started dating. He was going thru a divorce also. Couldn't have been happier. Found out I was pregnant we both were elated but I miscarried in late march. Got thru all that and found out I was pregnant again in June. We both were scared of losing the baby so we didn't get our hopes up. As the weeks passed we got more and more excited. But I have had several complications. I have had kidney stones and have an irritable uterus. The beginning of September Matt proposed to me and things couldn't be better. I love him, he is great with my kids and we all were happy. One week after that I started getting text messages from his soon to be ex wife that matt had been having sex with both of us the whole time blah blah blah. Said he was sending her nude photos and such and all the late nights he stays at work he is either with her or another woman. She just recently found out I was pregnant. I didn't believe her but then she sent a letter thru her attorney accusing him of all the above things and how she is scared for her life. I cried and cried and cried!! I don't think I have ever cried so much, and he just walked over to me and put his head in my lap and said don't let her ruin what we have. She just isn't happy and is trying to make us miserable. One week after all that died down my brother died (35 yrs old) of a heart attack. Cried and cried some more. The day he died I had to go to OB because I was having real contractions!! They kept me over night and gave me fluids and some medications. This pregnancy is the worst. I can't take much more. Now every time he stays late at work which is almost every night because he owns his own business I totally freak out. I wonder could he be with someone else. Dealing with Matt and possibly cheating and brothers death at the same time has completely left me depressed and having contractions. I want this all to be over!! A couple of days after my brother died my ex did finally sign the divorce papers after 3 months of sitting on them and Matt's ex finally agreed on signing the papers also. So we both will be completely divorced in 2 weeks. Matt came to me and set a wedding date of December 31st. We have started planning our wedding and this weekend we even bought our rings. I don't think he would go thru all of this trouble to marry me if he was sleeping with other women would he? I know he loves me, we have both loved each other the whole 16 yrs we were apart. We didn't see each other for 16 yrs and when we saw each other it was like nothing had ever changed. ( I went off to college) We both were each other first love. I'm just scared. I'm scared and depressed and I want this all to be over with. I don't want to have to raise another baby on my own either. I just don't know what to do. Sorry this got so long. I just needed to write it all down.