I would be 35 weeks now if I didn't take a bad birth control that was recalled nationally... I shouldn't have even had to experience the loss in the first place because I trusted it'd work. I had surgery on 4/26 for a missed miscarriage. But either way I'd be 35 weeks and due next month. I dread November right now. I feel like I shouldn't read the once in awhile e-mail updates they torture me. I don't check my old e-mail because of all of the pregnancy spam I get from several websites. But it is hard and when I do and especially today I get very down again knowing right now I'd be packing bags and getting ready to meet the baby anytime now. I know its a bit stupid or I think it is because I got pregnant right away because I refused birth control after my first experience on the stuff... and I know I will have a baby in April but for some reason I get a bit mournful and sad. I was actually crying earlier over it. Is this a normal process do women feel sadder about a loss or more mournful around the time of their due date for the lost baby? I figured someone here might know more? Thanks