It's coming up on one month since I initiated NC with my xAP. I'm getting much better at understanding/avoiding the triggers leading up to thinking about him - and the depressing sadness that follows.
Today, I fell off the wagon. (Note to self: stay busy and distracted on weekends!)
Aside from holding the line on NC, I'm wondering if anyone has advice on the toll the healing process exacts on confidence/self-esteem; sleep patterns - basically the mental and physical toll?
I am normally a beautiful, radiant, happy and confident woman, but these past several weeks have seen me lose sleep, become distracted, and basically unable to fake my usual happy self.
Still having trouble in having feelings toward my H. Last night we went to dinner with friends, and I was the quiet one at the table - and I looked ashen, sad and just not radiant at all!
Anybody else feeling like they went from Cinderella (or Prince Charming for that matter) to one of the Ugly step-sibilings?
Appreciate your advice!