I found out a little over one year ago that my h was obsessively email erotic massage people. I was checking my email on his phone when his secret email account popped up with thousands of emails from as a far back as 2005. I later found out that he had first created the account when we were dating in 2001. I had just started to go through the emails when became downstairs and could tell by the look on my face that something wasn't right. At first he denied everything, then he let me see into his account and I could see that he had actually followed through and had seen one prostitute that only offered hand jobs (?) and had had 2erotic massages over the past 5 years. A little background info about us is that last year at that time I was 8 months pregnant and we had a 3 and 5 y/o. We started therapy right away and I decided to stick it out temporarily for the baby. He has been doing everything "right" this past year but I do not trust him. I still feel like he is very distant and I feel very lonely in the marriage. Last night after we went to bed I woke up and he was gone, he thn came back in the room and said he had got up to watch snl. It may be true but I have post traumatic stress because over the past 5 years when he couldn't sleep he would get up and look at porn. The other thing is that he did most of his cheating at work. He has a flexible job where he can come and go. He also had a emotional affair at work that I realized about afterwards. So I just feel like I can't trust him one bit...... What would you do?