Hi guys, I am new here and just needing some one to talk to. I lost my twins 11 years ago on October 5. Of course I was devastated but eventually reassured myself that I will meet them in heaven. Recently (in the last year or so) I have come to realize that it is my fault. I caused them to pass away. A friend of mine was pregnant too and saw the horrible time I was having with morning sickness and gave me a pill her dr prescribed her for nausea. I never thought for a moment that it would come to any harm. She said it was the same thing they give cancer patients to alleviate the side affects of chemo. I figured since she was pregnant too, it was ok. The stuff I have read explained why I lost my babies, I was 8 weeks she was in her third trimester. It wasn't safe for use in your 1st trimester. I am being eaten alive by my guilt. I am petrified to talk to anyone I know about this and can't afford a psychiatrist. I know I didn't mean to hurt my babies but I can't stand knowing that I killed them. I ask their forgiveness often and pray God is holding them and telling them how much I love them. Thanks for "listening" and I hope you don't think I'm a horrible person...