Over the weekend something strange happened. On Friday, I had these really intense pelvic cramps that lasted from about 1:45 pm to the time I went to bed. They were on/off all day. I know psuedo-cyesis can cause what my therapist, Robin, calls "psycho-somatic" symptoms. According to my new GP, it's really a bladder infection. I just did a urine test yesterday, I think he's testing me for chlamydia as well.

    One more thing, ever since 2010, I've consistently had pelvic pain and water leakage during the 3rd to 4th months of "gestation". I can tell the bladder infection's come back after being treated with antibiotic yet AGAIN. I've been peeing more and experiencing the pain more routinely. The worst experience I had with "birthing" these Neopets was Xanadu, my psychiatrist at the time, Gonzalo, claimed Xanadu was the result of gestational diabetes as Xanadu's full birth weight would've been NEARLY TEN POUNDS. Future Neopets were premature, seemed tiny at the time, but were rather tall and heavy for their fetal ages.

      I wish I could get my drugs looked at by someone else. My GP actually found someone who could give me a second opinion but Dr. Mohammed didn't want me to see her. I'm afraid a different doctor from another Mental Health team would say that I ought to have my meds upped until the Neopets just "go away" and that I "shouldn't be hearing voices at all". I know that I need to keep my creative side going and that more drugs are worse for my body. I really would be okay with having more Petpets, as I'm carrying three right now, one of whom I suspect will be stillborn, I'd just like it if I got more time between "conception" dreams to bond with the ones I can communicate with the most easily.

                                                         Nalia2010