Okay, first post but figured this is better than writing in my journal.
I've been with the same man for almost 5 years. We took a break because I was confused and wasn't sure if he would ever step up and want to move to the next level. During that break, I had a little something go on with someone im in nursing school with. Knew it wouldn't really go anywhere since he was the complete opposite of what I usually date. I usually go for clean cut guys while this guy was a biker dude with tattoos everywhere. Anyways, i did develop some feelings but i think it was more lust than anything else. Anyways, my ex at the time, started calling me again, and we worked things out and are back together. I told "exhibit B" and he wasn't really surprised since most of the time, I'd been attempting to sabotage the "relationship" with him since I have trouble hurting other people's feelings. So it ended with him and I'm not kidding, within an hour he had already slept with someone else. So I thought things would be fine and we'd be classmates again. Unfortunately what followed was extreme coldness from him.
Okay so the complicated thing is that I now have to go to school with this guy. And from what he's said to me, he thinks I'm a gold digger who went back to my ex for security. Which isn't true at all. However, for some reason, I give a crap what this dude thinks of me. And it's bugging me. I care about the guy but won't go as far as saying I'm still attracted to him. I really just want things to go back to the way things were before anything happened between us so our friends won't feel as if they have to choose sides. And I've said that to him but he feels insulted by a comment I made when we called it quits about my ex being a better man than he was. But I wasn't allowed to get mad over the gold digger remark. Anyways, how should I deal with this when at school? I see him every day and he either purposely avoids facing in my direction or is super quiet when sitting with the group as if he doesn't want me there. It's affecting my concentration when I'm at school!
I shot myself in the foot when i dated someone from class and I should know better at my age (31) but obviously the convenience factor was there. Oh and btw, me and my handsome man are happy and are working out our lil issues.