Hi, Was a TTC at 40 and now after this week I belong here.  

I lost my baby at almost 9 weeks.  My first ever.  Been married for 10 years and was so excited.  I had an ultrasound and the baby was small, they dated it 2 weeks younger than it should have been.  Heartbeat at 105.

One week later, I started to spot.  At the emergency room.  No heartbeat.  sent me home,  for nature to take its course.  5 days later I lost it all at home.

So sorry to share, but I am so lost now.  How to oversome this all?  

I so wanted this....It's now 2 days after I lost it all.  I so wanted a baby and fear it may not happen again.

Thank you for letting me share....