I was on the boards about a year ago, thought I was doing so well, but I'm back to square one again. My A was a mostly a emotional one, but we were physical a few times, the last being over a year and a half ago. He is divorced, I am married. H and I moved over a year ago, I was sure this move was going to really help me get over this and move on and for awhile it was working. But I have 2 small kids, I stay home and haven't really had the chance to get out and meet people so I got really lonely. What did I do? I sent a fb message to XAP. Which he responded to. At first, boundries were set and we were both doing good staying within those lines, Then a couple of days ago, he overstepped the boundries, in which I responded and our conversations turned back to the way they were in the past, very personal and sexual in nature. I snapped pretty quick this time, knowing that I don't want to keep going back down that same road again and again. So, I initiated NC, deleted all his contact information off my phone again, and this time I deactivated my fb account. I am not going to get back on fb until I know for sure that I can do so safely without stalking his page. I may just stay off of it forever. I have to get off this ride. I am so tired of being heartbroken, knowing that it is my own fault, I really need all the support I can get right now.