*sigh* Where to begin. I was hospitalized for 2 days last week because I began to bleeding. I am now on light bedrest with probable complete bedrest in the hospital during 3rd trimester. This is very, very hard. I have a great doctor who is very frank with me about all the possible outcomes. I am 90 minutes from the hospital so at the first sign of any more bleeding, I have been instructed to call 911 to be taken by squad immediately, because of the possibility of a life-threatening hemorrhage. If I have to be hospitalized a second time, my doctor said we'd think about staying there until delivery because of the risk involved. I can't even imagine being away from my family that long. In light of all this, I am preparing my hospital bag and hopefully this week I can get the baby bag together, too. I am nesting like crazy and feel the need to just be ready for anything.
I am now labeled "high-risk" and getting regular ultrasounds and even more dr. appointments. This was a surprise baby to begin with (a very welcome surprise!), and now this complication surfacing is so completely overwhelming. I feel so unprepared.
I will already be having an early c-section, but just when is entirely dependent on how things go in the upcoming weeks/months. I really can't wait for this to be over. I just want to hold my sweet baby girl and be done with this. The holidays are my favorite time of the year so I am trying to make the most of every moment I have at home with my 3 girls and DH while trying to take it easy.
I have some amazing friends who have started bringing meals several times a week and a couple college students who are coming over one afternoon a week to help clean, watch kids, sort baby clothes or whatever I need done.
This is very hard for me right now. Prayers appreciated!