A really tough time today. Missing him and just can't clear my head of it. Two more fishing attempts and no reply from me. I know it's the right thing to do, but it's still so hard. He's using any way he can to try and contact me and getting alittle reckless. It's surprising since he was so adamant for thirteen years that there be no trace of me.
I always thought I was so alone in the A, in that I couldn't talk to anyone about it. This is almost worse now that it's over. Still no one to talk to.