Clarity, thank you for the suggestion that I post my story here. I am married with great kids. Husband is very opposite of me in many ways and we have grown In different ways. He is un-affectionate and demanding. BUT he says he loves me and would never stray. He is a good father and in some ways a good husband.  As for  me, I fell for someone else and we had a relationship that lasted 2 years. But we have known each other for 15 years thru our profession. He is older than me and very  successful. He said i was perfect for him and the one he had always waited fior. We had a fun, funny and sexy relationship. He showered me with love, beautiful words, letters and texts, lovely gifts, and was my sweetest friend and lover. Until the W somehow found out. and then i was dropped like a rock. No calls, emails or texts since that day he told me she knew. It has now been a couple of months since that DDay. I never heard from him since. At first I was hopeful that I would hear but when it  never came I sank into a deep depression. Never been depressed before so I did not know how it would feel. I do now. But I am getting better at least some days.  I still think of him so many  times each day. At least I am not crying all day long though. I wish he was not burned into my psyche. And it just astounds me that after all we meant to each other he could  just walk away without closure. Like I never existed. I can 't stop thinking about that.   I hope that some day I can get through a day, and then a week, without giving him a second thought.  Will I ever get there?  --True