Need serious advice,, Three week ago my live in boyfriend of elevn month broke it off with me because of my drinking. I admited I have a problem and I am currenly seeking profrossoal help. I understand why he left but I just don't understand after being with me and being so close to me he just left. He threw me a text this week on my birthday wishing me a Happy Birthday and that he miss me and luv me but not readly to talk yet ! Also that he not seeing anyone... Which I know is a lie because I was able to read his text log and he jump into bed with ex on the same weekend we broke up! That betrayed had hurt me so much.. Just thinking about it tears just fall down!! Anyways,What does this mean is he thinking of giving us a second chance ? I will love to talk to him and tell him I have not had a drink .. I am currenly seeking help through my church and my doctors.. It working !! I have no desire to drink. My closes family and friends are happy that he left because he is a pot head and they feel with him in my life and his drug problems that I would fall into drinking again if he was to come back into my life.
I try to think of all the negetive about him, like he a pot head, he take other drugs sometimes, lazy he can see you that you need a helping hand and he just look at you.. best best friend with his ex wife they have no boundary ! His relationship history, his wife was the one that wanted a divorce from him after 18 years of marriage, his four year relationship he admitted his ex girlfriend was the one to dump him.. Also he can go a day without watching porn ! Like spitting on the kitchen skink aw! Let not forget DEMANDING !!!
So why can't I just take him out of my head! Why I am still crying and hoping that he does call.. Did he give me false hope ? Why do I still love him even through all that has happen?