Hello everyone.

I used to frequent these boards every day about 10 years ago or so. That's the time I was diagnosed with GAD and Depression. It's also around the time I went through a difficult divorce. The last 10 years or so have been a ridiculous struggle in many areas of my life. It seems there is always something dragging me down. I know we all have our struggles and life throws us all curve-balls now and then. I also know that some of us, including me, seem to have the curve-balls thrown at us in rapid succession and it gets to the point where giving up and giving in seems to be the only chance of relief. 

The bulk of my anxiety and panic is financial-related. And the panic attacks hit me in the mornings, usually. Most mornings I wake up and I'm immediately in panic mode. It takes a couple hours to overcome it on a good day. On bad days, forget it...I'm staying in bed. My GAD and panic are, again, getting out of control. I've tried many kinds of meds. Right now I am on nothing and I'm okay with that. 

So, what brought me back here? Hope. I feel better knowing there are other people out there who really understand what I go through daily, and being able to communicate with those people can be very therapeutic. Since the holidays are upon us and that is the most difficult time of year for me, I hope to find some kindred spirits out there. Hopefully we can help each other.

I am 43 (44 next week), college educated, working two jobs. I have a 16 y.o. daughter and a 13 y.o. daughter, a fantastic fiance, and his 13 y.o. son. And Lex, my doggie. My real name is Leona. It's nice to meet you. :)