I'm going through a weird thing right now. In September my boss called me into his office and let me know the company is not doing well and they were going to have to start laying people off. He said that he kept me out of the first round of layoffs but that was the best he could do and I should get my resume ready. I was told I had around 6 weeks and so I started job hunting right away and he knows that. I've only gotten 3 interviews so far which is frustrating. Meanwhile they eventually asked me to take a temporary paycut to stop some of the layoffs but it was pretty clear it wouldn't stop my eventual demise - but what could I do I need the money and if it is going to buy me more time... The stupid part about this whole thing is that I have been here 10 years, since the company started, I'm an excellent worker, all of my accounts are profitable and my clients are vocal about how much they love me. I know they are trying to cut costs and being here the longest I get paid well (not paid the most by any means though) but I don't understand why they wouldn't keep me instead of 2 other people who are terrible at their jobs who their clients have said are hard to work with and their accounts aren't profitable.
They've started filtering some work away from me and haven't given me any new clients. Its basically a standoff. They want me gone but for some reason aren't firing me, they know I'm activly looking for a new job but I'm not getting many takers. I can feel they are getting antsy which is so stupid, if you want me gone fire me. It feels horrible coming here everyday but it's like, what else can I do?
The whole thing has just made my self esteem plumet and I feel depressed all the time. They are the idiots making very bad choices that are running our company into the ground, yet they can keep their million dollar homes and summer homes and fancy cars and country club memberships while I have to take a paycut and am just waiting to be let go. I'm beyond frustrating. I'm sure people here can relate?