Thanksgiving Eve...I have a lot to be Thankful for, and yet I have a lot of work to do on myself. On Monday, I am going to Poland for three months. I have many goals for this time, the biggest being to not wasttithe opportunity. I feel like I have been coasting along for a while, a long while. Somewhere on this journey, I weighed 159.5 pounds..but I couldn't hold that weight. Not sure when that was, but I am on that slippery slope where I gain a little, lose a little for a while. I have beenaround 178.8 for a while although lately I am backband forth between 179 and 180. My mom died almost two years ago, and was dieting for the two years before that. In the middle of that, I broke my foot and it didn't heal well...even after surgery I still have significantdiscomfort and sometimes pain most of the time. That has all caused me to lose focus but not give up everything. I continue to work out, relatively intensely, and I eat some level of healthy,but way too much crap. Mostly, I am struggling with people in my life...I am an emotional eater and the more people disappoint me, the more I punish myself with food. And to protect myself from disappointment, I isolate myself..and then I feel bad that I am isolated. I am close to retirement...not there yet but close enough to be thinking about what life I want when I get there.