I dont know if this happens to you guys but there are some days that I dont care if I am alone and single and then there are other days I hate it with a passion I want to die.

So now even if I want someone what is that telling the Universe? Its sort of confusing and mixed messages.. and that isnt good..

I am studying and learning and doing alot of metaphysical stuff and according to these gurus we have to be very specific in what we want and ask for it and find ways to get it..

Maybe I am just depressed and getting more cynical and tired of it all and the singles scene.. I mean for goodness sake being single at 58 and doing the scene is becoming more and more shall i use the word ridiculous.. I cant see myself even dating anymore because it doesnt even feel comfortable and there is something quite not right about it..and most people over 50 I am finding out do not really want to date nor are into it. They just want to meet and move in or take it fast because lets face it there isnt a whole lot of time left .

I just want to accept the fact that I am alone and might remain that way and feel good about it but I have that knawing feeling sometimes that it hurts to be alone too much.