Lately My faith is waning because I feel like God hates me.... My family has been so mean to me and I live with them.. I take care of my elderly mom and my sister takes her money and I get nothing for it but I still have to pay my sister rent.. When Hurricane Sandy hit I took my mom with me as we were evacuated and I spent money in hotel and for my mom for a month.. I did not have that kind of money to spend. I prayed and prayed and we were lucky we survived it all and God was good.
I have been looking for work and an apt. so I can get out of my sisters house. She is really a mean person to live with and she needs my room now for a nurse as my mom had a mild heart attack and is in hospital.. I cant find a place to live nor work and I have been looking for a very long time..Its frustrating and age is a factor I am sure.
I pray all the time and thinking why doesnt God help me,. I am proactive and sending things out and posting ads and nothing is coming.. I am alone and divorced and feeling so lonely and sad. I cry alot and I am 58 years old and feeling like I want to just die because its the only way out.. Plus I have limited funds for things and its frustrating and I dont feel that well either. All I do is pray and pray and I feel like God does not hear me..