Hello everyone,

Is everyone else struggling now, this holiday season, I just cant seem to get going, no motivation.  I still miss Sue so much, I still cant seem to find a spot of peace.  I have so many wonderful blessings in my life, my children and grandchildren, but nothing is helping.  Her passing  has left such a huge void, and I dont think the average person realizes how much, or how grief goes on and on, until they experience it like this.  I think the average person, just avoids the topic with you, and probably thinks you should be well on your way to getting over things, not the case at all, the pain is so intense.  I keep reflecting on our last conversation, what we were doing this time last year and on and on, its like I am desperate to keep her alive in my mind somehow.  This year, I keep reflecting on Christmas gone by, when my Mom was alive, when my Dad was alive and so on and so on, seems so many are gone now, now Sue is gone, and I face the fact that my brother will not be with us for long either with his cancer.  Christmas just seems to =sadness, for so many.

I am going to a grief support group, which has helped, but they are taking Christmas break now, so nothing until New Year, but the people there are so tuned in on how you feel, its a level of comfort I dont get with many others. 

HUGS to all

Kathy