My boyfriend and I have been together for four years. We are 15 years apart, I being the younger. We have a one year old together. We also started and currently run a successful business together.
I have recently started looking at my life. I want to make some changes. First, my career. My boyfriend and I decided that there are "too many cooks in the kitchen" and I told him I wanted a new career. I want to be a police officer. He is highly opposed to this due to potential dangers and that I am a mother. So that's a whole other topic lol.
More importantly, I am unhappy with our relationship. We lack that spark, the passion. I know that fades overtime and I am not just speaking about sex, however that isn't great either :( We don't kiss, touch or even seem to have general fun anymore. I feel like I live with a really great business partner. He is loving, helpful, am amazing dad and much more. I am just not getting what I need though.
We have been to several therapists but have not clicked with any of them. I recently saw a text on his phone (we switched phones). He was asking someone about a ring. I think he is going to purpose. If I say I'm not ready, I know our relationship will end. This is just not howwant to to spend the rest of my life. I love him dearly, but I feel as I am missing out on my youth or maybe a more comptable relationship.
I would rather stay in this one and keep my family together if possible. Is it?