I should be happy. I have a loving understanding husband and a new house. I just want to sleep all the time. I can't handle little stresses. I do well for a while and then I'm back here crying. Wishing it would all just go away :(
We both want kids but what if I get post partem depression, what if the kids end up like me struggling to be happy every day.
At a meeting at work the other day something was said that really upset me. We make paw prints for people when they have their pets euthanized. To me it is VERY important. It'Ruth's last thing I can do for a grieving owner and a last memento of their pet. I take a little longer to do it because I make sure it comes out right. At the meeting we were told after describing the technique I use that it took too long and often still looked like "shit" i didn't feel comfortable saying anything at the time but wrote the manager anled pained how important doing the pawprints well was to myself and the owners. To which she replied that it took too long and I'd left a deceased patient alone and when she reminds me to do the . ( I was pulled away to do some bloodworkwon another patient ) and she said that I replied I know I didn't forget in a cocky manner. Which was not my intent.
I felt bad leaving the patient alone, and I hurried back. I was respectful of the body and made a good paw print. I didn't think I soundecockeyed.
Why can I not stop crying when I don't think I did anything wrong? I had the last 2 days off but have been too depressed to do much other than sit in bed.....