hello. why do i feel like the world is over? i have been so badly cheated on that i can't even breath. i have a freaking phd, make good money, we have two great and successful kids, yet this man felt the need to satisfy himself elsewhere. I just want to smash his face in. in my spare time all i do is search the internet (social media sites or trying to crack his passcodes). I am truly pitiful. how can i move on with some semblence of sanity? why do i love and hate him so intensely at the same time?