I used to be a frequent visitor of iVillage way back in time, probably 8 years ago or so. I pop in and lurk from time to time but with my current life it's not often.
Anyway, I am a woman married to a man and we have a young son. I've known since about 1st grade that I like women but I never once acted upon it before I was married. I messed around with a lot of men but always found it to be awkward to meet men and moreso to meet a woman. I am having feelings of "what if this wasn't supposed to be" and just in general not in love with my DH right now. I love him as my son's father but I can't muster even the slightest feeling to even enjoy sex with him. I've been feeling for a while that I should be experimenting with a woman but I am a devout monogomous person and cheating is my worst enemy in my mind. So, do I continue to explore those feelings or just drop them and settle for a sexless life with DH? I take care of him, of course but when it comes to me...it's just not "doing it" for me.