My mom was never loving.  She rarely hugged or kissed me as a child and I am 27 now and she doesn't express affection. 

When I was 0 years old to when I was 11, my dad had many affairs.  And my mom found out when I was 11, and things happened at night when they were fighting.  There was verbal abuse, violence and threats to kill my dad. 

My mom is a very bitter woman.  She didn't throw birthday parties for me ever.  I put myself in therapy at age 14...I told my mom to sign the papers. 

I moved out and supported myself at age 21 & now I am 27.  I just earned my Bachelor's Degree and I have 2 jobs in my career field. 

When I went to visit my mom on Christmas, my dad was at work.  My mom put me in my brother's room (he moved out across the country) and I read a book in there, then I was called out to eat...then she sent me back to my brother's room to wait for the bus. 

I am 27.  I am old and should be more mature.  But it still hurts that I don't have a loving mother.  My dad makes conversation with me....but he's usually quiet.  I spent most of my Christmas holiday with secondary family. 

My mom is so cold & negative...I am not sure I feel love between us.  When she talks, she doesn't really take in what I say and just keeps talking over me. 

My friends know me as this sweet, loving, supportive girl.  But it's this rejection from my mother that hurts.  If I ever confronted her....which I would never.....she will not really register my words in her mind & keep talking over me (=not care/understand).

I had many failed relationships with men looking for love & I haven't been single for 8 years.  Right now I am single, and hope to work on myself. 

 
I need from iVillage users:

- please share your experiences with me so I don't feel like the only one with PARENTS WITH MARITAL PROBLEMS

- I need reassurance because I feel sad