Hi again...I've been on and off this board all year. Sometimes I just stop by to check on you all, sometimes I think about re-joining but then I have a change of heart. I took a break from here because TTC has nearly torn me apart, as well as causing major problems between me and my fiancé. This would be his first baby and the fact that I have two beautiful healthy children with my ex-husband devastates him. He loves my son and daughter like his own and would do anything for them, but he is desperate for a baby that's biologically his. I arrogantly thought it would take maybe a few months, six months maximum, however this the end of cycle 9 and nothing has happened. I got pregnant with my son and daughter practically just by looking at my ex-husband! I've never had to try and try and try like this before. 

Anyway, how are you all doing? I notice that a few of you are still here too :-( Socal? Qtch? Madpie? Smth? angel24? Xbeautifulx ? Its lovely to see the familiar names as I scroll down the page, but heartbreaking at the same time. I joined back in March, and Brooke, you for one had already been trying for months before that, I can't imagine how frustrated you must be.

Good luck everyone xxx