This summer I found out my husband was cheating on me with his cousins friend whom sbe set him up with I felt something was odd but had no proof found out by a text message confronted him of course he lied and his cousin and others tried to cover his ass for him finally the other woman told m everything  one incident really got to me one night we were all hanging out at his cousins house and we stayed the night while I was asleep with our daughter my hubby picked up the girl and they all went to Walmart he told her that I showed up beimy drama so she couldn't go up to his cousins house her friend then took off to go have sex with her when I woke up in the mornbeg he was gone and lied about it so everyone knew about this he told her that we were separated and that I was drama bipolar and would be crazy if I found out finally he came clean and stopped seeing her I have filed for divorce and he is not allowed to speak to his cousin anymore she didnt understand because she feels she didn't do any wrong this was back in August the girl told me they were only together twice it was just sex that didnt make me feel better my hubby was un happy in our marriage he said he cheated because I cheated which was t true wasnt I thought we were happy we had his daughter here for the summer and were spending lots of time together and having plenty of sex then he tells me I pushed him away WTF he doesn't work I do I pay all the bills cook clean wash clothes I dont understand why he did this we have seen our Pastor and are getting help the divorce is still in process I am at the point where I am on the fence I jus cant get over it I love him and want to make it work but I don't feel I can get over this we are not living together we have a 3 yr old daughter together I get so sick just thinking about him being with another woman he was also going out so who knows if she was the only one I had an std screen recently all clean how damn embarrassing any advice would be good I am really at a cross roads here I am thinking of maybe letting the divorce go thru and break it off