Hi everyone;

I am going to try and say something on here but it will be tough to convey it like I want because its a message board but will try.. First off I had a really good time at my brothers party. I got home late and I woke up late today... Anyway;; My sister and her boyfriend were downstairs all day cleaning and whatever she does. She has OCD and tells him what chores to do and he does them.. He is like a puppy dog and does whatever she says and she commands whatever she needs done.. when he is here I try not to come out of my room because its awkard so I basically just go downstairs to eat and go to bathroom... So as I was sitting in my room sis just opens the door and says to me right now in this moment go outside and take your box that is near the shed and throw it out or do something with it.. Now that box got went in the Hurricane and yes I did need to empty it and all but it was so cold outside and I was tired and not in the mood right there and then so I snapped and told her to stop bossing me around.. I said I would get to it when I wasnt so tired and all.. She didnt like that and commanded me to get the box.. So I snapped again as I went downstairs and started to tell her off.. While I was telling her off her boyfriend chimed in and said some pretty awful nasty put down cut throat things to me.. Like you should be greatful and thankful and do what your sister tells you because in my opinion I dontknow why she doesnt kick you out.. He thus contunued on his rant to me and very disrespectful and I gave it back to him..

Now I dont think its appropriate for him to say these things but its not entirely his fault.. Sis tells him things about our family and the family dynamics and dysfunction and she even tells him how much rent I pay her.. She tells him I sit around all day and eat bon bons and watch soap operas in wh ich case I dont but even if I did its none of his business what I do.. Then he also made a remark like you are on facebook.. I said so what is that to you.. Then I said some nasty things like I didnt have a charmed life and got to live with my mommy for twenty year and save all of my money and never have a wife or family and have to have responsibility.. I guess you are lucky as you skate through life.. You have no clue who I am and what I do.. Anyway; this went around in a circle with yelling and fighting.. I told my sis I would love to so get out of this place asap but getting a job is very difficult as I am trying so hard and getting an apt. that is affordable is really hard. These are true cold harsh realities and I am trying so hard.. Her boyfriend said I was lying and I am n ot. but then again who is he?? I told him I hope that Karma doesnt bite you in the butt and that one day you will be old with no job and mommy will be dead an dthen what will you do??

I know I shouldnt have engaged in this but I snapped and so sick of both of them and their nonsense and thinking they are better than everyone else.

Trust me everyone if I could get out of sis's house asap I would but renting a room in another crazy house doesnt appeal to me and so I have to wait for an apt. that I can afford. Its either that or living in my car or a hotel and they are very pricey and with Hurricane Sandy now many people are out of places to live and its hard.. I might serioulsy have to move to another state but I dont want to because of my son is here and his gfriend and my brother and that crowd and I still enjoy them.

I think about doing something stupid but now sure if I really could.

thanks for letting me vent.. Please be kind..