Hi all, I am in need of some hand holding and support, I am at the moment in an A, I am single he is married and although he tells me his marriage is not good and he is sleeping in the spare room, he is staying because of his daughter, yes I know they all say that. In fact there is a lot of back history to me, makes me sound like a really callous bitch but if you knew me in the real, I am not at all, and I really cant believe I find myself in the same position as 13 years ago.
I got into an A all those years ago, waited 5 years for him to leave, he lived with me for 5 amazing years when I then found out he was having an affair with a work colleague 26yrs his junior and left me for her. So yes how do I find myself here again, after trying to get over the most unbareable pain, in which time I really didnt want to live.
So back to my position now, I know for my sanity that I cant carry on with the A, I am so unhappy and suppose its because all I can think about is the pain I went through trying to get over my loss 2.5 yrs ago. What really upsets me and puzzles me is that my AP watched me go through the breakup I even cried on his shoulder many times, he started to text constantly, then drop into my house for visits, which ended in me being very weak, oh and even more bad news is that I work with him. I suppose I am at a loss with how I am going to end this, without going back to a place I never wanted to revisit.
Any advice and help would be much appreciated.