Hi, this is my 1st post here. I am posting about an online relationship I have had for the last year.
I am 36, never married, no kids. The man in question is 37, single, no kids. We both have busy jobs, and on top of that we live in different areas of the country.
He is a great guy. Very private, but a good guy.
Over the year we have chatted we have gotten quite close. We email at least several times daily, and skype........often having several hour conversations.
We have weathered some ups and downs, but we always voluntarily work through them.
We were joking last night about qualities our ideal partner would have. I have had issues with a few exes, who were so private that i was never a part of their lives. So i mentioned that I need someone who isn't too private. He mentioned that he feels like he is so private he shuts me out.
Today I asked him if it jist made him feel bad and curious, or because he wants it to go somewhere and is worried.
He admitted it didnt sit well. But said he didnt feel comfortable answering. On one hand I am perfect and he would love to date me. Om the other hand he could say no because we're so far apart, one of us could meet someone else that changes everyrhing and a multitude of other things. He ended saying he didnt have an answer, but admires me for pushing my comfort zone.
Im not sure what to do. Keep up the friendship and hope for the best. Or just walk away. He is special, he gets me, but i am crushed. I know I am willing to make it work.
Am I beimg dumb?
He admitted it is because it just sat wrong