17 weeks

It has been 17 weeks of NC. The only way I could get here was to quit my job. No, I don’t have another job lined up. But I have never been happier, absolutely, downright, happy!

He’s MM, kids, I’m single, no kids. It was EA for about 9 months, PA for about 4 months. Ended A in early 2010 but I continued to work until well, 17 weeks ago. Up until then, it was sheer hell every single day for me. I continued with Indiv. Counseling throughout my tenure there and also took anti-deps. I am off the meds and every now and then, I go for IC. To be bitterly honest, I stayed at my job after breaking up becuz I still had a teensy-weensy itsy bitsy microscopic bit of “hope” that we would get back together (gag…). I truly think I simply wasn’t ready, or strong enough, to quit my job wo another one lined up (actually, I wasn’t letting go of the A). I then finally realized that I HAD to leave for my life, my sanity. and by this time, I was finally strong enough to jump the stagnant ship.

Since my departure, I have had other wonderful job prospects come up. I cannot complain; things Are getting better all around for me.

While I realize what I did, quitting with no job lined up, may not be suitable for those going thru work-LC, what is important is to stick to NC 100%. It truly works. (I had blocked all forms of communication from xmm. I NEVER want to hear from him again, in any manner.) I do think of xmm every once in a while, I won’t deny. I have my ups and downs, of course, but it is so much better for me since I left. It was the best decision I did for me. LC can be done and after 2 years! of doing LC, I simply couldn’t take it anymore. There was a disasterous, horrible dday also and even with that, I still wanted xmm. Pathetic. I had to do what I had to do for me. Leave my job.

All I wanted to do was share a little bit of my experience and to let you know that you WILL get there…..to Peace, to Respect..to Loving Yourself…….to Happiness…again…You Will Get There!.....but it takes A LOT of work. And it also takes A LOT of TIME. No Contact is the only way to go.

PS-I posted my story a long time ago at EAS before this awful switchover and I couldn’t find it. I sure hope these boards come back alive. What a sham(e)