On Monday I posted on Clarity's roll call thread that at 15 months out of my A I was at a 10!
On Tuesday morning I woke up to an email from Xmm, after 15 months. His pretense for the email....wanting to know if I was going to go to our high school reunion (35 year runion!!), hoping I was going to go he said,..........on September 28. Seriously!!! This man could never commit to what he was doing tomorrow let alone 8+ months from now!!
Yesterday I wasn't at a 10. Not because I had any feelings of loving or missing him but because I was so ANGRY at him for once again invading my life. I have spent the last 15 months doing everything in my power to protect myself. I changed the way I drove home from work to avoid a possible sighting, I didn't go to certain restaurants or stores in areas that I knew there was a possibility that I could run into him, I unfriended him on fb, deleted him from my phone and life.................but the one thing you can't control is a new email address.
Today's a new day.....and I'm back at a 10. Onward I go on my journey!!