Hi All. Am hoping this is the right board for this type of question.  Was looking online and most boards regarding sex are to some extent... ugly.  Not what I was interested in

Just wondering if anyone else (male or female) would think something like this is odd or different.  I'm 40years old.  I have a 9 year old (adopted), single (as far as I'm concerned single and divorced are the same, if you're divorced you are single).  Girl/woman next door type I guess.  I enjoy the normal life basics.  light camping, baking, family, etc.  enjoy girlish themed items.  princesses, angels, fairies, small animals/baby animals.  but also have a few more I guess unusual interests including genealogy, family and otherwise.  imperial russian history (romanovs), would love to travel to historical sites.  I attend scottish highland events as a clan tent hostess

I also do suffer from and am being treated with meds for major recurring depression, general anxiety and social anxiety.  going out around people especially new people I dont know is extremely hard for me.  I have a slight idea why.  I do care what others think of me and dont like it when I dont think anyone cares about me... 

I recently moved to CA from WA for a new job.  not adapting really well to new job, bored.  nto getting out much other than that yet.  and have been considering doing a makeover, hair, etc.  then I look more and then I see this massage based in India done locally where they massage even your breasts and stomach and it sounds very interesting.  so does getting a brazilian wax (never had a wax before).  

but one of the interests I've had in the past has been peaking again.... started out somewhat older at age 27.  but had a fun afternoon one time before my son doing photos for someone.  lingerie, outdoors, playing with whipped cream and berries, light bondage and loved it.  I've been known to enjoy being in pictures and taking home movies.  recently though was thinking of doing a boudoir session but honestly they seem vanilla.  then I noticed where you can get paid, even for amateurs, all body types for letting them take pictures of you, various kinds.  things exactly I enjoy doing.  

my body iso kay I guess.  petite in height. average in size. a little big busted.  just to me it seems like an usual set of interests and somewhat even conflicting.  dealing with something like anxiety and depression.  being a woman next door/soccer mom type and then wanting to get paid for showing myself

any comments or suggestions are recommended

thanks, Suzanne