So, xap has found a few ways to contact me. I have not replied. I'm trying so hard to do the right thing and he just keeps showing up.
I know this is for the best. There is too much anger and hurt in our history to ever make this right. I have to ignore it and keep moving on.
His words today brought me to tears. I do miss him, but not enough to go back. It's still a game with him and I know he'll say almost anything to get a response from me. And then he wins. I can't do it. Please, someone tell me that I'm doing the right thing. Thirteen years is a very long time to just walk away. It's been a really difficult couple of days.