Thanks to everyone that responded or replied to my first post. For the last few days, I have been really scared. The other morning I woke up and I cant remember what I did or what I thought about and this is really scaring me. My anxiety is getting worse, although however I do have some testing or tests that are going to take place to see what's going on with me. I have been afraid that I'm going to hurt others which is a common symptom for people with ptsd due to trauma and I'm a trauma survivor. I dont want to end up in prison or throwing my life away and I feel like I already have. I feel like such a bad person and I have been feeling this way every since what my cousin did to me. I feel like I have lost me and that I wont find myself again and that i'm doomed. All i want is my life back. I just want to know that i'm safe. my mom was asleep in the house with me and my stepfather was outside but I dont know if he would have saw me if I would have done anything and this is terrifying me. I have admitted myself once because of this. Can anyone help me, I'm desperate.