I hope someone can help me with advice, tips or just a bit of understanding.
I have had my heart broken very very badly by both my ex husband (of 18 years!) and my ex boyfriend (he was more of a dissapointment, but it still hurt me very badly!)
I now find it VERY difficult to love my new partner properly, I try and I want to, and I know how...but I get scared and pull away and start building that wall again I so carefully put up over the past 2 years, he managed to break it down and he did this a few times, however I just get really anxious and panicky that I will get hurt again. It's a shame as we could probably be much much happier and it is causing me a lot of anxiety and stress, including sleepless nights etc...
I am not worried about him cheating, I know he will never do this to me, and vice versa. I can't really put my finger on what exactly I am concerned about here, and was hoping to find out through chatting on here and talking it through, perhaps there is somebody out there who is or was in the same situation and felt the same way. What did you do about it?
I have had counselling for my issues with men, its all due to my relationship with my father and other men in my life (my uncle , my grandad and even the boys at school!).
I do like men and I am not a man hater at all!! This is why I am always happy to have a relationship with a man, because I am not anti men at all!
I treat them right and I am loving and caring , however as I said, I get panicky and anxious after a while and start reading into things too much. Get fearful and very emotional , start worrying etc... It's a horrible way to be and I hate it!
Hope someone can help! This is a very sensitive issue which is affecting my life and happiness in a VERY big way! (so please no mickey taking!)
Thanks your help is much appreciated