After a weekend of fighting over stupid stuff, I am having a bad day and just need to vent. I hate the thoughts that creep into my head - is he angry enough to go back to his affair partner? Why do I have to think about that when we disagree over something? I feel like I always have to weigh that stupid concern everytime we get into it about something... and how is that fair to our relationship? To me? It makes me so angry.
And then I spiral down further... I am angry that he put me in this position in the first place. I have never and will never cheat on him. The thought of it breaks my heart. How could he do that to me? I thought I knew the man I married, and I was certain that man would never do that to me. So certain. What else am I terribly wrong about? Who AM I married to?
Sorry. Bad day. And I am p*ssed that I have to suffer like this. [Insert pity party here].