Hey all-Not sure if anyone is still here from when I used to come here for support and advice. I am still in some contact with my xAP, in fact we have been flirting on and off and backing away from each other for quite some time now. About a year or so...anyway. Well I did go to a conference last April and ended up having a one night stand with someone down there who was in the same line of work that I was, actually a lot higher up in the State than I am. That was it. Fast forward to this past weekend when I went on a trip to Vegas. I ended up meeting this great guy who took an interest and I in him. We hung out for quite a while and I went back to his room. We shared a lot of passionate touching and kissing. No sex due to the high intoxication levels. He asked for my number and I gave it to him thinking he would never use it. I actually wrote it down and crumpled it up and threw it on the floor by him. Never expected to hear from him. He got in touch with me the next day and wanted to hang out ( he was sober). He stated that he felt a great connection between us too and even hung out with my family and I. Was very careful to not let anyone see our chemistry was more than friendly...he did rub my leg and touched me whenver he could. We split for a bit and headed our separate ways but he told me to keep my phone on so that we could hang again later. He came to see me and we danced and then I went to see him again at his room(with my cousin) this time. He was disappointed that I came with her and kept trying to kiss me and have his body touch mine. We laid in bed and hung out...she left...we got back into the passion and ended up having sex. Both nights he wanted me to spend the night with him and sleep in bed with him. Walked me back and bent down to kiss me everytime we parted...also held my hand and walked around like we were together. I can't get him out of my head. He lives in LA as an LAPD officer. I live in the Midwest. We are both married. Was it just VEGAS and now leave it alone?! I have a hard time letting go of all of the excitement, butterflies, and passion...can't believe I have become a somewhat serial cheater! UGH! Maybe it's because I've been with my H since 17...maybe it's because he cheated on me...idk.