I haven posted for a long while. Me and my AP were on the outs so to speak he is recently divorced and I am still M. We have been on and off for 5 years now. He has acted like typical newly D man. And I let him, I said you want to be free, be free. I have really been into myself. I thought our relationship was over, I mean we are not "offically" together any way but for months he wanted sex and I said no be free. He did not like, he dated others I know because two weeks ago we got together. He was under the weather, I nursed him some, no sex, just talking. And he gave me the speech about who he saw what he was doing, he tells me he is selfish and asks me about my M. Why does he need to tell me this??? I listened without judgement cause I pretty well knew what was happening. 6th sense I guess. We kissed and I left. I still love him. What is wrong with me? Not sure? Though all of this we still talk everyday without fail. I'm not sure where this is going but he is not seeing anyone else now and we are gravitating toward one another again, suppose to see him again. I don't really care anymore, I miss being with him physically. I know I'm just weak.