I wrote on hear right after I lost my father in december is was very sudden and terrible experience. I thought I was doing better. But i feel like i am going backwards now. I can't stop thinking about my Dad and basically watching him die. I keep thinking about everything that happened, the feeling I had, it feels like a movie in my head. I wish it was. I just feel like its one of the worst things when a parents or family member gets sick, and when they die everyone understands its hard but then it like you should move on. How do you move on? I can go about my day pretty normal. I go to work, go to my moms, sometimes see friends. Its just I always go back to thinking about my Dad, and the emptiness in my heart. And when I'm alone its bad. I could cry the whole time. I also feel like I need to talk about it, I just cant move on. I just can't believe this is the rest my my life. My Dad will miss so much. I know it will get better, But I will always have sad moments. It feels terrible to know this. Does anyone have any advice or ever felt like this?