Hi everyone, I used to post a lot on this board about 6 or 7 years but not so much recently. I am back because I don't really know where else to turn to for help. I had a bad week last week and my weekend wasn't that good either. Last week I made the hard decision to break up with my boyfriend. We were together for a little over a year and he was abusive to me about 2 to 3 months after we started dating. I tried several times to end things but he also promised he would change but it never happened. I suffer from depression and borderline personality disorder so I feel alone and I don't like being alone. I feel happy though that I was able to do the right thing and I am trying to move on from it. I ended up losing two close friends because I broke up with him. He didn't have any place to go (he was staying with me) and they let him stay with them. They lied to me about it and asked me why I couldn't be friends with them and I told them I didn't feel comfortable going over there with him there. My friends also told me that I wasn't going to pick their friends for them. I am not trying to do that, I just don't feel comfortable being there when he is and I feel like they have turned their back on me when I really need them. They don't seem to want to look at it from my perspective. I don't want to see him homeless or anything though. I just had to get out of the relationship. He's tried contacting me about his xbox games and I won't say anything to him. I don't want to have any contact with him. My friends have tried contacting me and I won't talk to them either. I have one close friend that does know what is going on and she has helped me by listening to me but I don't want to bother too much because she has her own problems to deal with Last week was really hard for me as well because on Wednesday it was a year since my mom died. Tomorrow is my birthday too and I don't really have any plans. We celebrated it early because my dad is down in Florida right now. So I decided to come here and talk about what is going on and I hope I get some advice. I appreciate the responses I will hopefully get. Thanks for reading.