Hello all, I am back again - probably should have never left!
Things with my AP are just as confusing as ever, will that ever change. We actually saw one another this week for about 30 minutes, there was no physical contact whatsoever. He had a cold and he told me the day after that he did want to get close and give me what he has. Once again I find my jumbled thoughts which turn into semi-coherent rambling here.
We have stayed in daily contact for atleast 3 years some days its like we are getting closer but when he has the oppotunuty for even the slighest (they have been very few and far between) he does not follow through.
Still confused and should let go but cant...