For starters...I am single mom 38....A few months ago I met a young man (26) through some family of my son. He was a funny young guy who had a lot going for him. There are several groups of "kids" who hang out with the family ranging from 16-26. My son was going through a rough time after the death of my partner last year and being around these guys really helped him get out of his rut. This partucular young man really seemed to make an impact on my son's attitude and outlook on life. During these times we would communicate on how he was encouraging my son to do things that were positive.
Recently we were texting regarding some things that happened during the day and he made a comment I wasnt sure how to interpret. The conversation seemed to be a bit flirtatious, so I stopped. The next day when I saw him we chatted a few minutes, nothing said so I let it alone. That evening he began texting me about how he had been noticing how nice I had been looking lately (I had been losing some weight) and how he thought I looked great for being my age and having a son as old as mine.He proceeded to tell me he thought I was sexy. Again I exited the conversation. He is the least of what I am normally attracted to which is older more settled and distinguished men. A few days later, we began texting late night and the conversation got heavy, leading to talk of meeting up. I don't know what the sudden attraction was but we really were hitting it off.
A few days later, it came to pass I was home alone and he came to see me....he no sooner made it in the door and we were all over each other and 4 hours later....we were faling asleep in each others arms. I hadn't felt this good in a looong time. The following day we agreed this could not get back to anyone we knew as we didn't want it to get back to my son especially. I was afraid this would get in the middle of their friendship. We have seen each other several times after, it has been a few months now, and it is getting harder to deny when we see each other outside of closed doors. Our chemistry is unbeleiveable and we could go on for hours together....we talk, laugh, we can just lay there and get lost in each others eyes, we have amazing sex, and he makes me feel so sexy and alive. He tells me I spoil him and he can't deny he is really "hooked" on me. I have tried to ignore and put off his texts, but it is very hard. We agreed this couldn't be more than just a little fun...but now he says it is undeniable how much he wants me all the time. We both agree we wish we didn't have to hide this.
We have limited access to each other alone since my son is around either him or myself at one time or another. I have convinced myself it will pass and it was just a fling, but the more we are apart the more I hear from him, and honestly I never looked at him as any type of relationship possibility...but now can't deny I am kind of hooked myself. of course I love my son dearly, and he cares alot about him too. They have developed a good relationship and we are not sure how he would react if he found out. He could on one hand be okay with it, as he used to try to get us to talk earlier on before they had a friendship, however now...its a little different since they do.
Any suggestions? Just stopping would be the first thought I know, neither of us thought this would happen, we just figured it would be a little fun. Now it has become complicated. Help!