I gave my self the best birthay present ever. I tol myself i would never have sex with my ex husban again an not only did I keep that promise it was the beginning of getting my life back!! Three weeks later filled with him trying to get me to have sex with him by him being a complete jerk the night ended with him trying to kill me. Up till that night I wasn't scared of him serously hurting me but spent most of the next eight years scared he would try to finish the job. The only time I felt safe was when he was in jail. But I still pushe ahead an made a life for my children and I. We were lucky. We were living in South Carolina with him but when we left and went to New York he went to Florida and at first he pulled all his nasty tricks to get me back but once I learned of some stuff he did that I won't ever post about but was enough to keep him away from the kids he did the best thing for all of us and stopped contacting us. Then he went to jail and last month he walked in front of a car and now we are completly safe from him so I can finally admit that I was still scared of him up till the day he died. I couldn't put that even here because he knew I posted on the boards and I did not want to chance him knowing I was still scared of him. But now I have complete freedom from him and it feels great!! I hope everyone has a wonderful day!!!