There have been some workmen at my house for several days. I've been fairly calm considering there are strange guys in my house and I'm basically alone with them while they are working. They seem to be nice enough and I stay out of their way and they stay out of mine. The strange part for me is that although I haven't really felt that I was unsafe, I realized that one of the places they were working they might have run into healing books or old victim's compensation statements. Of course the statements were in a box, probably other under papers so not very visible but for some reason the fact that they might think something had happened to me was more unsettling than having strange guys in the house anyway.
On some level it feels a bit like progress that I can feel ok alone in the house with four strange guys and not be in a total panic that something bad will happen. But at the same time I feel so uneasy that they could find out about what happened by inferring it through books and such.
This has just been on my mind and I wanted to talk about it.